A Dose of Reality

Let's see: anyone who knows me probably saw that one coming! Lol, it's about reality tv (partly). I just watched Million Dollar Baby and Little Black Book. Million Dollar baby doesn't have much to do with reality tv but, in some ways, looking at a boxing match on your tv, waiting to see who will win is reality tv. I hate boxing (still I liked the movie) and most reality shows but anyways, back to the subject, really.

When the movie started, (Little Black Book) I mentionned to my sister, the job the main caracter has, is a job I'd like, as in working for tv...definitly not a talk-show or reality tv. She told me to watch the extra they had on that job. Quite deceiving 'cause it was on talk-shows, I'd do that job but not for a talk-show!

My own sister doesn't know me that well...sad, this is my reality! And it got me wondering why the hell some people can read me sooo wrong!! I was called for the Ricki Lake show (best example of not knowing me). Now, I was told the title of the show was : "I have a crush on you" came with a warning that it could be anyone even a 90 years old neighbor! A coworker etc, etc...I didn't say yes, said I had to think about it. I didn't care about the free weekend to New York, star treatment or anything...I cared for the subject...

And I shouldn't have because it got me pissed as hell. Now anyones who knows me, even just a bit, knows, or at least should know (especially if they're saying they have a crush on me) two things :

1.-I have a crazy unpredictable temper.
2.-If you have something to say, say it straight to my face.

This is why I chose not to go. Snapping on National television doesn't give me a kick! Hell no, I figured I'd make a fool out of both of us 'cause I'd probably scream something like : 'Hell, no!" Or, "you really had to bring me on tv to tell me that?" or anything rude you can think of. I don't need my life on National tv, thanks! So I turned it down. You wanna know what the best part is? I got to figure out who was stupid enough to call the show, I even got to find out the real subject : "I'm not sure I'm gay, can I kiss you to find out"...Now, if you know me, picture me with a forced smile...

I almost killed the guy! One thing's for sure, he would've been humiliated on tv by me! Two reasons, he damn well knew he was gay, he just wanted a free trip to New York to meet a new guy and I hate those kind of lies.

Why do those freaking shows exist? I watch Maury sometimes, I think his show still has some class (some). But hell, there's that reality craze going on! It's not reality people!!! Wake up. I think people like me who'd rather live their lives quietly and not have the whole world know, are more real than any idiot who wants to wash their dirty laundry on tv. Oh, yeah, you look so intelligent on tv saying you cheated with so and so and so or telling your lover that you really are a man. Say it in private please, will you?!?

I saw that guy who almost cried asking his girlfriend why she couldn't have just told him what she did privately at home. While I did feel sorry for the guy and changed channel (I still wonder how come they think tears bring ratings), I still thought to myself : "Hello, Jerry Springer!!! Why are you crying for, fool! You should've known!". Take all those shows off the air, I don't know what to watch anymore!!! Sorry I'm not a happy camper, I just found out "Tru Calling" was cancelled and it seems like we're invaded by shows like : Big Brother, Survivor, American Idol and all this crap!!! Hear me please and bring my old tv back. And if you know me, DON'T EVER have a reality show call me! But you know better already! ;)

I Can Hear Your Soul...

I don't always spend much time with my friends. Shame on me. I could blame it on a busy schedule, but most of the time it's just lazyness or plain stupidity. I LOVE my friends! They're incredible, yet somehow, I sometime spend time with people who are less worthy or my presence and who's presence I enjoy a lot less.

But it doesn't seem to bother me completely and when I talk to them or see them, I still feel close as if we saw each other yesterday. I gotta say, most of my friends, well all my friends are blessed with talent. I'm quite lucky, I get to read, see or hear beautiful creations every now and then. I never realised that in a way, it's what keeps me close to them. Not talking about whatever, just hanging out etc....I mean, that too but all the writing, the singing, the amazing talent. the way they express themselves through art....I can hear their soul...(way of speaking)

It's beautiful, really. And I am happy to be so blessed. Whether it is a new blog by Kat or Jo, a song by Oscar and even Kat, I can hear their voice rendering it the most perfect way possible, because it's all their's...It's all them. It's authentic, deep and beautiful. :) It's all them, who they are, who they'll be...

What makes them so unique and special may be that way they have of communicating. This openess, this beautiful soul...Who knows?! For now, all I can say is I cherish their friendship and every art piece they create Because it's theirs, because they're talented, and because I can hear their soul whispering through it all...