Enough...

I like men with power...Is it why it didn't work out with my ex? He was far from the kinda guy I usually go for and yet I'd do everything for him? I don't know. Do people still call female the weaker sex? I sure hope not. Maybe I'm a little weak...well I am but to what extend?

One of my favorite movies (yep, you'll get that a lot) is Enough starring Jennifer Lopez. A woman is being violated by her husband and eventually she fights back. You would've never guessed...He was so nice and loving in the beginning. But what I like is how she stands up for herself and decides early that SHE WILL NOT TAKE IT!!! WOW, I like men with power...her husband (before he turns into a monster) is the kind of guy I'm drawn to. Successful, powerful, gets what he wants, he's not afraid to make decisions.

Only he decides that he wants her and therefor, she is his and will be until he doesn't want her anymore. He tells her right after hitting her: "Today is the price you pay for having such a wonderful life..." Freak!!! I think a lot of women who watched that movie saw the kinda man they would want before this happened. So what was it? What is it? If you want a man with power, you're bond to get stepped on? Betten up? Don't think so. But I do want to change something...How much power the guy has over me...see this is the sensible part. Power is one thing...but over what? Over who?

Hmmm...if I get involved with a guy with power(I've done it before) I just do whatever he says. I like it in a way. The other me is independant so doesn't like to be told what to do. Pretty complicated, lol, I know I'm the one who's twisted it so much. But I'm wondering, thinking...And you know what? It tells me only a woman equally strong can handle a man of power. Only a woman that knows when it's time to put her foot down. Knows what she wants and doesn't want and isn't scared to go for it. And when it's not the way it should be, she's not scared to say ENOUGH!!! And walk away if it's the only way.

So my message basically is something I've read before: "It is better to have no relationship at all than being in a bad one!"

That's who I wanna be. That strong woman who stands up for herself. And maybe someday, someday, she'll stand for others as well.