How long can you pretend everything is alright before it all comes crashing down? I thought I was alright...well I guess, maybe I was pretending after all. Yeah, I probably was...trying to stay strong when deep down I'm soooo scared...I don't know why all of a sudden I'm freaking out. I expected things to be different for sure but why am I loosing all composure?
I tell myself, nothing will change whether I freak out or not so I try not to for the sake of those around me but I just don't know anymore how long it'll be before the break down. I wish I was naturally strong. Stronger than I pretend to be. That it wasn't a mask that maked me look in perfect control when I could lose it all.
I'm feeling the pressure, maybe it's all pressure coming from me, but I still feel it. It's driving me crazy, I just hate it. There's so much I want and yet so much I have to do. Why do they have to constrast and collide forcing me to chose...I can't, probably won't until the last moment when I'd be facing very difficult choices with a need for a decision to be taken immediatly...Hmmm...is that how long?
About Me
- Caroline
- Montreal, Quebec, Canada
- Victoria Lane "the big ego" just dumped her fiance, Graham Bill, one of the world's most eligible bachelor's. He was just "too" nice. He gives her a whole year to think about it since he's so sure she'll come running back. Victoria believes it is ridiculous but when Graham starts dating again everything changes. Victoria is just not so sure about her choice anymore and will do ANYTHING to get him back. Along this crazy adventure, she'll learn a thing or two about herself and so will Graham. ---For more information, please read first post: "Work in progress..."
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