A table, a chair maybe?

Have you ever felt like you were part of the fournitures? Maybe the decoration... I guess everyone has, at leat once in there life. I don't like trying to be the center of attention. I'm the quiet one, I could be standing there for a while and you wouldn't notice. I'm probably crying inside 'cause I feel invisible when I know I am not. So why doesn't anyone care? Why doesn't anyone care to make me part of the life instead of the fournitures?

Maybe I give the impression that it's alright with me... Yeah, I guess, wll maybe not... I mean, I do get out of my corner every once in a while but I probably don't make a strong impression. Yup, that may be why... SO in a way I'm nothing...or it's just: "let her be, it's ok, she doesn't mind. ­" I DO MIND!!! Hell if I take the time to be somewhere, I doubt it was to stand in a lonely corner... Yeah, my corner.

That corner with I've shared a love/hate relationship with, for years. Love because when some creeps get on your case it's always welcome. Hate, because you can just become trapped in there and become it. Invisible...I'm not, I try to get myself noticed and not go overboard, 'cause I can't stand being the center of attention. I can't stand being ignored either. Am I normal?!

For example at a party, ever notice how everyone encourages you to come and once you're there, if you're like me, you're on your own! It's like a big : GOOD LUCK!!! And if you're "lucky" enough and you know the organiser will sure come to say hi and tell you to "join the party." Hell some will even try to force you into a group. They'll make presentations, stay a few minutes and once they're gone, well you're fourniture again.

Hell, I guess I deserve better than that, maybe I should learn to vocalize more?!? Just that it's hard to forget old me who'd go balistic and scream over nothing! I'd always make a fuss. It was pretty impossible to miss me unless, of course, you were deaf!!! I don't know, I've never found a balance. Really sucks, and sometimes you're not only in a corner, you're also cornered... You try to make yourself heard and it doesn't seem to work, you'd wanna leave but don't want it to seem too obvious why you are...

Lol, don't ask me for the answer to this dilemma. I guess it's all about how you see things. You choose to think about yourself or spare guilt to those who were surrounding you! So anyhow, let me know what your choice is. ;)