It is better to have love and lost than never to have loved at all...

Ever heard about sounding like a broken record? Well I'm lucky I have plenty of CD-R's left because my Whithney Houson never could've handle that much of me playing "Where Do Broken Hearts Go"...Love and lost, this is what this blog is about. Recovery? Maybe...

I watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind recently. Twice. Once pretty late, alone and a second time with someone I love...my ex. What's to say...I love this movie. A friend recommended it and since I trust her taste, I bought it. I don't regret it one bit. Before seeing that movie, I was pretty much the person you'd hear say to anyone who would listen that the title of my blog is bull. This is an old draft I'm finishing with a new perspective.

Back to the movie...Joel wants to erase his ex girlfriend Clementine from his memory after hearing she went through the same procedure. As you watch the movie, you're in his mind. You're following the whole process of Joel realising how much he loves her and doesn't wanna forget. So...if you could erase someone you loved, would you?

I definitly would've said yes giving how much I hate being told told it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. But now, I wouldn't say yes. Memories are precious, they can not be replaced, sometimes we take for granted things we shouldn't. And it seems when we get hurt, we'd rather remember the bad, for protection I guess. The movie made me look back...I love my memories, I wouldn't trade them in for nothing in the world. Since I have to, I'll take the good...and the bad. 'Cause when you look back, it wasn't always so bad.

I don't know, this movie is magic. And I value what I have a little more now. I'm kinda scared to have it all taken away from me. True that in a way I wouldn't know, but so long as the choice is mine, I'm keeping it all. Why? Because I can...and I'd feel empty without it, in a way. All my experience made me who I am today and I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. Of course, I'll still say it's bull sometimes but deep down?...Maybe it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

And all of you who have never loved? You don't know what your missing! ;)